Numb

Maybe
Just maybe
I dont want to think of "maybe" anymore
Tired to get fooled by this word
Such a hope but it just delution
Maybe im not trying hard for to get the aim
Maybe i dont aboveboard for the things on my head
It's so devastating
It's so frustating at the end
What am i supposed to do anymore?
What else do i have to do?
I did everything i could
People said, i didnt do my best
I didnt do with aboveboard
Just say what they want to say
I numb already
I dont know, is it too much?